phade.

The phases in my life sort of run parallel with each other. I get into new hobbies, I put everything I have into them, and then they sort of fade away. Sometimes they just blend into the next. I gain experience towards other facets of my life, and sometimes, these phases are revisited.

It always comes as a surprise to me when I start to realize the decline of one of these phases. For the past couple years, I've slowly watched my DJ years fade into almost nothing.

I guess I can attribute it to my lack of interest in the club scene in NYC. What I experienced in Rochester and upstate is what I consider my scene. I can relate to it, and the people. Here its such a large scale. I hate the crowds, most of the music, and the cost of a good night.

I just mixed some records this afternoon. It was fun for about 10 minutes, and then, I just thought of so many other things I could be doing. Its like a bad relationship that you try to hold onto for comfort. You just want to hold on, but for what? Sometimes you just have to let go and move on, and thats where I am right now.

I have crates of amazing old vinyl. I have tons of equipment, lots of music production software, and hours upon hours of mixes. As of now, I'm done with it all. I'd rather have the space in my apartment than all this equipment.

As I said before, sometimes phases are revisited, sometimes not. Whatever the case it will always be a part of me.